Monthly Archives: September 2016

Broken

Broken things are usually discarded. Sometimes, the thing that is broken is put back together. But it almost always shows proof somewhere that it was broken. Perhaps a tiny crack that couldn’t be completely patched. Or a chip where a … Continue reading

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Loving Too Much

I think I love too deep. Too much. Too hard. If I honestly look at my heart, I realize that I never “kind of” love someone or something. There are very few things in this world that I can take … Continue reading

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My Sunshine

There hasn’t been much sunshine in my world as of late. No surprise if you’ve read anything I’ve written in the last few months. The dark clouds have been gathered for a while and they have been pouring down rain … Continue reading

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Where’s the Grace?

I’ve had several confrontations¬†in the last few weeks, all revolving around the same issue, but the connotations behind the words as different as can be. I have not kept it secret that life has been hell for a while now. … Continue reading

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More Shatters

Growing up, I was never a fan of television. On Saturday mornings, I would wander outside by myself, looking for things to fill my time until my neighbor friends would be done watching hours of Saturday morning cartoons. We didn’t … Continue reading

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The Beginnings of Shattering

Loneliness has become my new best friend. It’s probably a good thing, though, since I’ve pretty much lost all my other friends. Maybe this is how my life has always been destined to be spent. Alone. This morning, I counted … Continue reading

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This Morning…This Day

My mom used to say that a person can handle anything as long as they had a good night’s sleep. I mostly disagree with that by the way. But this morning was a rough one, and it came after a … Continue reading

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Be Careful With Wishes?

I recently received an e-mail from someone who felt the need to give me some unsolicited advice. The gist of the message was that I needed to be careful with the wishes I make and the words I say. The … Continue reading

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Needed. Not Really.

For a while now, I’ve been enveloped in a thick, oppressive darkness. Each time I think that it just can’t get any darker, something happens to prove me wrong. I’ve stopped thinking that I am at the lowest point I … Continue reading

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Shattered

In 2004, my dad died. And my heart was shattered into tiny pieces. Somehow, I picked up those pieces, stuck them back together, and found a way to keep going with a broken, pieced together heart. In 2013, I lost … Continue reading

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