Author Archives: becmom45

About becmom45

Wife of one, mom of four, mom-in-law to two, grammy to one precious little boy; lover of snow, autumn, pumpkins, cats, books, baking, Charles Wysocki puzzles, Christmas; honest, raw author who hopes what is written here enlightens and educates those fortunate enough to not understand the demons chronicled.

Down the Rabbit Hole

This little corner of the web that I occupy always has been, continues to be, and always will be a space where my thoughts are honest, regardless of whether someone is offended by them. At times, I am very much … Continue reading

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Wins and Losses

    At some point in my childhood, I was taught or I saw it modeled the idea that everything in life is a competition. Perhaps it was my the educational system. In school, a student is rewarded if they … Continue reading

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Oranges and Apples

Anyone who knows me well knows that my favorite season is apple season. I know that technically, apples are not their own season, but when one lives in the northern part of the midwest, apples on trees don’t last very … Continue reading

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A Dose of Reality

It comes as  no shock to people who know me or who have read much of anything I have written. It has been nearly 5 years since the suggestion was put before me that the health difficulties I had been … Continue reading

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Another Year Over

Usually, some time around December 31st and January 1st, I open my PC, type in the address of this blog, and start typing what I refer to as “A Year in Review”. Some years those entries have been fun to … Continue reading

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People Pushing

This post has been ruminating throughout my brain for several months. Every time I started to compose the words, I would find myself unable to adequately express the feelings inside me without making others go on the defensive. While browsing … Continue reading

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The above image appeared as a post in my Facebook newsfeed one day a couple weeks ago. It resonated deep within me. It has not been a secret that the last year has been insanely difficult. Narrowing that down even … Continue reading

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I have always known that the old rhyme about sticks and stones and words was not true. Remember saying that ditty as a child? Sticks and stones may break my bones, but names will never hurt me. Usually, this was … Continue reading

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Sowing and Reaping

If you know me well, you know that one of my favorite genres of music is Southern Gospel, in particular, the Gaither Vocal Band. A few years ago the Gaithers included the Twin Cities on their tour. My husband, knowing … Continue reading

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Sucker Punched

I believe it’s fair to say that close to one hundred percent of adults have been blindsided by a sucker punch. You know, the words that spew like daggers at you from the mouth of someone you never thought would … Continue reading

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