Category Archives: death

(Un)Celebration

This morning, after a night where sleep was interrupted by potentially serious pain, I was awakened earlier than I wanted to be by a text message. Any parent, whether your kids are teens and still live at home or they … Continue reading

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Tears in a Bottle

Every morning after my husband leaves for work, I cry. Every. Single. Morning. Even on mornings when I am heading out the door for work at the same time as him, I cry. There are tears that fall on the … Continue reading

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Recovery Mission

The last ten months have been the most difficult months I have faced in a while. More specifically, the last four months have been, well, a living hell. The other day, I poured my heart out to someone in an … Continue reading

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Sayonara, 2016

Today is the last day of 2016. Frankly, I am quite glad that it is nearly over. It has been a very long time since I can remember having a year as bad as this past one. It seems each … Continue reading

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More Like a Swift Kick

I’ve been told that God won’t stop pursuing me. I’ve been told that God loves me unconditionally. I’ve been told that God speaks in a still small voice. For the last six months, I have vehemently disagreed with those statements. I have … Continue reading

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Courtesy of Pain

I read a quote this morning that really hit home with me. Part of it reads: “A drop of water on a stone doesn’t do much, but a constant drip eventually erodes and changes the shape of the stone forever. … Continue reading

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Beautifully Dying

As I sit on the floor typing today, outside the window directly in front of me is a large maple tree. The crisp, autumn temperatures have caused its leaves, once all green and full of life, to turn to a … Continue reading

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Not a Good Place

This morning I sit here in the quietness of an empty house. The only sound other than the clicking of the keyboard as I type is the hum of the space heater that is keeping me warm. My two faithful … Continue reading

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Lies

There is a monster that resides within my head much of the time. The monster’s name is Depression. Sometimes, I am able to wrestle the monster and lock it away for a time. Sometimes that duration is long; other times that … Continue reading

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Thursdays

I am a creature of habit. It has been said that most people are. It is why we tend to eat the same foods, watch the same television shows, listen to the same kind of music, and follow certain routines … Continue reading

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