Category Archives: fear

People Pushing

This post has been ruminating throughout my brain for several months. Every time I started to compose the words, I would find myself unable to adequately express the feelings inside me without making others go on the defensive. While browsing … Continue reading

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Misunderstood

The above image appeared as a post in my Facebook newsfeed one day a couple weeks ago. It resonated deep within me. It has not been a secret that the last year has been insanely difficult. Narrowing that down even … Continue reading

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Agonizing Bones

Yesterday I made the trek out to the mailbox. We live in a townhome community, so all the mailboxes are in groups that line the street. It isn’t a long walk for me, but it is one I seldom make … Continue reading

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Forward Motion

With the exception of a few years after I got married, for as long as I can remember, Saturday night was always the night before church. As a kid, I remember hating Saturday nights for they meant that the next … Continue reading

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Where’s the Grace?

I’ve had several confrontations in the last few weeks, all revolving around the same issue, but the connotations behind the words as different as can be. I have not kept it secret that life has been hell for a while now. … Continue reading

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The Perfect Storm (Part 1)

It was a hot and humid summer day. A typical summer day in July in Western New York. I was oblivious to the scorching heat of the sun and the oppressive thickness that filled the air. Although both surrounded me, … Continue reading

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Scared

Scared. A word that describes much of what I’ve been feeling lately. I’m scared to believe in a God I can’t see. And scared not to believe. I’m scared of being stuck. And scared to move forward. I’m scared of … Continue reading

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What Good?

Warning: This post comes from a very hurting heart. If you know me in real life, most likely you will strongly disagree with what is written here. If you choose to read it, don’t say you weren’t warned. For a long … Continue reading

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The Long, Winding, Unpredictable Road

I’m sure you’ve heard it said that life is a journey. None of us asked to be here. None of us had the choice of whether or not we would be born. I’m not speaking theologically here, although there is … Continue reading

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Wishing

“I wish I understood things better than I do. I wish I had made better choices in so many areas. I wish my dad was still around to talk to. I wish I could re-live my kids’ childhood. I wish I … Continue reading

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