Category Archives: fear

Forward Motion

With the exception of a few years after I got married, for as long as I can remember, Saturday night was always the night before church. As a kid, I remember hating Saturday nights for they meant that the next … Continue reading

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Where’s the Grace?

I’ve had several confrontations in the last few weeks, all revolving around the same issue, but the connotations behind the words as different as can be. I have not kept it secret that life has been hell for a while now. … Continue reading

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The Perfect Storm (Part 1)

It was a hot and humid summer day. A typical summer day in July in Western New York. I was oblivious to the scorching heat of the sun and the oppressive thickness that filled the air. Although both surrounded me, … Continue reading

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Scared

Scared. A word that describes much of what I’ve been feeling lately. I’m scared to believe in a God I can’t see. And scared not to believe. I’m scared of being stuck. And scared to move forward. I’m scared of … Continue reading

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What Good?

Warning: This post comes from a very hurting heart. If you know me in real life, most likely you will strongly disagree with what is written here. If you choose to read it, don’t say you weren’t warned. For a long … Continue reading

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The Long, Winding, Unpredictable Road

I’m sure you’ve heard it said that life is a journey. None of us asked to be here. None of us had the choice of whether or not we would be born. I’m not speaking theologically here, although there is … Continue reading

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Wishing

“I wish I understood things better than I do. I wish I had made better choices in so many areas. I wish my dad was still around to talk to. I wish I could re-live my kids’ childhood. I wish I … Continue reading

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Fear Knocks Loudly

I have a beautiful grandson. He brings sunshine to the darkest days. When I go to my daughter’s home to visit or pick them up to go somewhere, he squeals loudly when he sees me walk in the door. He … Continue reading

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I Miss Me

Yesterday was one of the worst days I have had in a very long time. One of the most difficult aspects of living with disease is the unpredictability it brings. I have said this before, but it is worth repeating. … Continue reading

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The Forks Are Out To Get Me

Perhaps you read the above title and thought this was going to be about food. I could SO easily go in that direction right now! I will not, though, and instead, I will save that topic and revisit it soon. … Continue reading

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