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This Meaningless Life

Four days ago a knife was held in the hands of a man I really do not know. I was not aware of when he made the first cut. I was off in the place one goes when in a … Continue reading

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Going Old Style

If you are a reader of this blog, you know that the past several months have been excruciatingly difficult. Most people who would normally read this will not be able to now due to the fact that I have deactivated … Continue reading

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Moving…Backwards

There are moments, sometimes I can pinpoint the reason and sometimes I cannot, that I hate myself. This self hatred is a deep seated belief I have held for most of my life, and tonight is one of those nights … Continue reading

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In the Ring

I guess it has been ┬ásome time since I have written. Like most people living in these days, I have found myself busy. Of course, the holiday season adds to that busyness, but for me, with the exception of Thanksgiving, … Continue reading

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Beautifully Dying

As I sit on the floor typing today, outside the window directly in front of me is a large maple tree. The crisp, autumn temperatures have caused its leaves, once all green and full of life, to turn to a … Continue reading

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The First Aching

This is my glider rocker. Dave bought it for me when we moved to our townhouse a little over a year ago. I had always wanted a chair specifically for reading. This chair was perfect for that. We put it … Continue reading

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Not the Same

Many people have what we refer to as pet peeves. These are behaviors that a person does, whether consciously or unconsciously, that drive another person crazy. There are far too many examples to list, but I imagine anyone reading this … Continue reading

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Broken

Broken things are usually discarded. Sometimes, the thing that is broken is put back together. But it almost always shows proof somewhere that it was broken. Perhaps a tiny crack that couldn’t be completely patched. Or a chip where a … Continue reading

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Loving Too Much

I think I love too deep. Too much. Too hard. If I honestly look at my heart, I realize that I never “kind of” love someone or something. There are very few things in this world that I can take … Continue reading

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My Sunshine

There hasn’t been much sunshine in my world as of late. No surprise if you’ve read anything I’ve written in the last few months. The dark clouds have been gathered for a while and they have been pouring down rain … Continue reading

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